In My Feels...

He was my New York memories spilled all over My present life in Phoenix..  A constant reminder of how unforgettable our lives are together

Tuesday's messages I miss you he said Ok ok you win he said Please Call me he said I’m sorry he said All the things I wanted to see to show that he truly did care... Unfortunately I knew it was a cycle I couldn't enter again... I had to tell myself no. He treated me like less then a woman. Put me down in ways that could damage me forever... He probably didn't even remember what he said but I remembered every word... I had to let God handle it this time. I couldn't keep giving myself to someone who wasn’t  afraid to cut open the same wound that he himself stitched back together. There's no winning or losing in love... Just a lot of learning... I'm sorry ... I can't I replied.

“ Your mind  is your  instrument . Learn to be  its master and not its slave .” ~ Remez Sasson. For the sake of peace and prosperity.. Do not let your mind enslave you with negativity. Be the master of your mind and nourish it with all things that will always empower you.. emancipate yourself.

3:30 am in Phoenix Take me there A place where no pain exists Where no heartbreak can happen Where no feelings of emptiness can come  creep up on me I lay up and ponder Why am I not good enough Why was the love not strong enough Why... You sucked me in, and made me believe we shared something special. Something no one else could have. O ur attraction was so magnetic that we couldn't be without each other Was it funny to lie? Was it amusing to hurt me? I tell myself I am enough. I have enough. I do enough. It feels good for a minute.. Deep inside I still feel empty I still long for you Trying to break the magnetic force Trying to get you off my mind I lay up and ponder Take me there A place where no pain exists So I can no longer feel the emptiness creep upon me at 3:30 am to forget we ever happened to not think of you every single day Take me there

There's something about being apart of something that makes me feel special. Having traditions with family, and friends is nostalgia on repeat! When I was younger my mom would take my siblings and I to go buy a real tree, and then we would all decorate the tree together. We made cut out Christmas shaped sugar cookies, and candy cane ornaments every year! As corny as it sounds Every time December came around, I got excited to feel that warm cozy feeling! Once my mom left the US, and remarried when I was 8, we didn’t have Christmas anymore. Each year came, and it didn’t feel good that we weren’t doing anything at all. It just became another day, which sucked because I loved everything about Christmas time.  So this year I’m getting festive for the first time! Now that My boyfriend and I have our own place together, I want everybody to feel good when they walk through the door! So I put together some stockings, for my boyfriend and our friends, decorated the tree of course, put

You are  The sun to my morning The nourishment to my soul The fire to keep me warm The shooting star to my dark night My favorite song on repeat Yes you are Yes you will always be  The perfect metaphor ✨

Your beauty glitters.. like the sun reflecting off of a crystal Smooth and transparent Your kisses are softer then every whisper